life update

1. school is keeping me awesomely busy! now that i'm actually starting my major classes, i'm just realizing that the fundamental art classes are so so so lenient/easy. or at least, EASIER compared. dsgd104 is such a super important class in which i must excel, because it could make me or break me for bfa graphic design (and i really want to get in!). i'm taking it so seriously that it's actually starting to impair my creativity, because i want to get it RIGHT. i even got into a design rut for dsgd99 (typo) because i'd throw out anything i made. luckily, my friends convinced me to go to the project 1 critique that the bfa students were hosting, so they could help out us undergrads. i got a lot of really important and helpful feedback, and i'm eager to hit adobe illustrator for some designing!



here's what i'm working on for 104.


















live trace not permitted!


it still needs a bit more work, but this is harder than i thought it would be -___- it's hard to please my professors.
and i think i will purchase a mac :)


2. franny, alan, and eric gave me their permit for the parking garage :) now it's such a breeze to flit back and forth from home/SJSU/SJCC/work. i mean it's a pain to park in their garage because there are columns and walls all over the place and it's SUPER CRAMPED, but i think i improved my parking/driving skills hehe


3. i miss working so much :( it's like a super social vacation away from school life, because my coworkers are so crazy haha. i feel guilty working only two days a week because if i'm shift lead, then i should probably be working more. ah well jeff is okay with it... i don't have plans to quit yogurtland anytime soon because it's probably the most fun job i've had yet, but i will have to leave once i get my design internship. sigh!


4. i feel like i'm always coming to this decision. i've had to make this kind of decision more than a few times (actually every single time), and now i'll probably have to go through with the whole ordeal again. i'll give it some more time so i'll make absolutely sure i want this. i doubt i'm unsure, though. i've been thinking about this for quite a while, but the thought's always been floating at the back of my mind. don't wanna waste my time waiting around for something that's not gonna happen.


5. thinking about cutting my hair? i'm a little sick of my hair. most of the time i like the length, but othertimes i wish that it'd actually have a real style. i'm kind of over with the whole sidesweptbang+longlayers thing. i'm thinking long blunter cut with full bangs? right now i'm slowly growing out my bangs so i may wait a little bit more.


6. can't wait to donate blood :)

broken plans

I hate it when I lay out my plans perfectly but get screwed over by others. Today was supposed to be a nice jam-packed day of three different events -- lunch with the girls, a quick drop-in at piedmont open gym (plus picking up Trevor at the lightrail at 4pm), and drive Diane to Stockton while doing a photoshoot with Eric at the wind pass (leave open gym at 5ish, allow half an hour for Mama to supply Diane with food, pick up Eric at his apartment, commence driving to Stockton at 6ish, and get to the wind pass around 7pm--perfect lighting with half an hour to spare). Lunch with Thannie and Jen went perfectly. Trevor and Truman decided not to go to open gym, so that sucked but was no biggie. Diane and i got a little held up before going to open gym because we had to stop at Mikey's, but that was fine. Then I practically had to drag Diane out of the gym because she didn't want to leave, even though I told her many times beforehand that we had to leave at 5:15. Then I planned for us to leave the house at 5:40, leaving plenty of padding time for Diane to shower and for Mama to finish preparing food for Diane. THEN Mama decided to come along to make sure that we're driving okay. I tried to talk her out of it, but she said that I was being selfish (if Mama came along, Eric would not come, so there goes the photoshoot). I called Eric and asked if he still wanted to go; understandably, he didn't. It's 6:30, Mama decided not to go after all, and Diane and Papa just left. We would probably have gotten to the wind pass at 7:30, which is right when the sun sets and definitely isn't enough time for photoshooting.

I mean, I understand that even the best-laid plans go awry, but I can't help feeling so disappointed. I was definitely looking forward to this photoshoot. Sigh, I need some retail therapy. very sad :(

the downfalls of being a workaholic

Unfortunately, concentrating on one part of my life makes me lose touch with the rest. School is bigbigbig right now, work is a side dish, and badminton is weakly trailing behind. I really want to do well in school, so I'm pouring in my hours. For work, I think I've already reached my peak; now it's just something to break up the monotony of school whilst simultaneously filling my wallet. Badminton is something I'm very sad about. I feel like I'm losing touch with my badminton friends, and especially my skills. I'm so rusty that I can't even be considered rusty anymore, but merely downgraded. Doesn't that suck? To improve on this aspect of my life, I need to invest in more time, but that time is currently being spent on school and work. And it's hard to find people to play with when I'm this rusty; I don't want to drag any of my old partners down, but I don't want to settle with someone who can't clear/smash. I hate to be selfish, but I do want to get better. I miss my badminton friends; I feel like they're drifting away from me and they don't even realize it.

If only there were more hours in a day :(

photography

You know people like your photos when they're used as Facebook profile pictures :)

productive summer?

Life is much more fulfilling when i spend my time productively :) I don't want to look back on my summer and think, "Wow. I did nothing." I want to be proud of myself.

I'm pretty happy about this summer. work is becoming more and more natural to me, and customers have been telling me that I'm always happy and friendly whenever they see me. that makes me happy that i've made a good impression on them. I've made earrings for just about all the girls at Yogurtland, which is actually quite bonding. in addition, i've been working on my photography. i must've taken at least two thousand--maybe three thousand--pictures this summer, and I got my first paid photography gig by Alex for his badminton lessons in fremont. so far it's turning out pretty well; it's pretty good practice. sports photography isn't as fun nor as demanding as fashion photography, but it's good to add to my arsenal.

my efforts in school have paid off too; I finally got the Jack Sen scholarship thingie (what a pleasant change from my high school years!), but I have to give a speech -___- I'll be representing the college students, and I only hope that I won't sound stupid. Yesterday when my parents and I went to their office to purchase dinner tickets, the Jack Sen people said that I should compete in their Miss SF Chinatown pageant. My mom really wants me to (she's even willing to buy the cheongsam dress and everything, which is very out of character for her) but I don't want to open myself up to public scrutiny -_- it'll just make me insecure. Plus I'll have to work out and get alls toned and everything. too much work but it sounds like it'd be fun!

i finished my domo bag but i have a strong urge to make more :D and i still haven't gotten to work on my dresses yet! i need more time!

random things i like

1. first day of school with fresh notebooks in a newly-packed bag
2. using giftcards so i don't feel like i'm spending money
3. having a huge study session on the 8th floor of the library armed with paper, pens, highlighters, my ipod, and a Quickly/thermos
4. going to school wearing a big sweatshirt and comfy boots
5. going to school wearing a ruffly skirt or dress
6. buying a new shade of nail polish
7. lip/cheek stains in general: their simpleness and effectiveness
8. receiving flowers; something very sweet and classic about it
9. sitting in my sweats/PJs, fresh from the shower, after a long day
10. going to bed in the winter and snuggling in three layers of blankets
11. watching movies at night, wrapped in a blanket, with yummy snacks nearby
12. waking up in the morning and realizing that i still have an hour to sleep
13. vacuuming my room and watching everything get sucked up
14. going on organizing sprees
15. uberwarm days at the beach
16. blasting driver-douches with my horn
17. random acts of gentlemanly/chivalric kindness (!)
18. when i get to the bus stop right in time for the bus to approach seconds later

gaston boots!

Found my dream black Gaston boots! Found them randomly while I was picking up a waterproofing spray from DSW. I splurged for them, yes, but I love them so much!! Super soft leather in the exact style for which I was looking. They fit me like a glove! I had to call like 3-4 stores before locating them in my size, but it was sooo worth it! Can't wait to wear them in the fall hehehe. I'll pay them off in 3-4 days at Yogurtland. -_-

Time to go on a no-buy...